I know I haven't posted in a while, but I've just been so down in the dumps that I haven't really had anything interesting to talk about, nor have I really wanted to post. All I've wanted to do was complain...about my life, about my job, about Paris, about France, even about my friends and my husband. Let's just say the past few weeks have been pretty dark, even with all the sun we've had.
Unfortunately that has not changed and I'm still pretty down. But I'm trying to find the motivation to do something to improve my situation, rather than just complain about it.
So, since I'm extremely unhappy with my job right now, I have decided to start looking for a new one (easier said than done here in France). For the moment I'm not looking too seriously and I'm only going to send my resume to ads that REALLY interest me because I really want to go to the US for the month of August and if I can stick with my current job until then, at least I will have paid vacation to do it. Otherwise I won't be able to go seeing as tickets to the US are EXTREMELY expensive (if anyone sees a flight to the Ohio area at a reasonable - less than 1000 euros - price, please let me know!).
So, I have found one very interesting position so far, and I sent my resume on Tuesday. It starts in September which is perfect because I can continue my job, leave on paid vacation, then come back and start a new job. Only problem is, it's still teaching English (which I REALLY don't want to do), but at least it is a fixed salary, paid vacation, a set schedule, all in one place and less hours than I do now...for only 50 euros less than I make on average in a month now! I figure I can do that for a year or two while I try to figure out what will really make me happy and where in the world I have to be to do it. I'm seriously beginning to doubt that I will be able to start any sort of real career living here in France.
Other than that, I am keeping my eye out for interesting ads outside of teaching (I know this will be a struggle, but I absolutely have to change or I'm gonna back my bags for the US and jump on the next flight home) and I will really begin to seriously search this summer. I'm hoping that a better job will solve the problem as I think it is the main reason why I'm so depressed with life right now (though I am not sure and there are definitely other things that are making me unhappy). Wish me luck and let me know if you hear of anything!