Jasmin and I getting some wine
Jasmin at the Super Bowl partyI've known for awhile that she was going to leave. At first she was just thinking about it, but then in June/July she officially bought the plane ticket for September 22, and that's when I knew it really was going to happen. However, even with all that time to prepare for it, it was still very hard to say goodbye Tuesday evening (I even cried...).
Jasmin and I at the Chateau de Chantilly
I know that in the end it's the best for her. She wasn't truly happy in France, and she was dying to be closer to her family. And now she is going to be able to start her "real" life with a real career and she will be able to see her family often. I know it's best for her, but I can't help but be selfish and throw myself a bit of a pity party for the next few days as I deal with the fact that I have one less person here in France that I can turn to every day, at any moment. I'm happy that she is going to be happier, but I'm devastated that she isn't here any more. I know we are going to stay in touch and that we will remain friends, but it will be hard to not have her here to do things with and to talk to over coffee or a glass of wine.
Jasmin and I visiting wine cellars in Vouvray
Since I've arrived in France I've tried really hard to find myself a few good, close friends who I can rely on, who can keep me sane and who I can have fun with. And every time I make the effort to find a very good friend, they leave. Laura left after our year as assistants. But Marybeth was still here. Then I met Jasmin and we really clicked. We had lots of fun together, could rely on each other for anything, had very similar situations, en bref, it was perfect. And I really didn't think she was going to leave France. In fact, when I met her, she had no intention of leaving. But that changed, and now she has left too. Luckily Marybeth is still here, but she is leaving to return to Canada at the beginning of November. I'll still have my Russian friend, but she is very busy being a good, dedicated Russian wife and so I'll be lucky if I see her once or twice a month. And there is Julie, my French friend, but she doesn't live in Paris so I can't see her very often. And my new American friend, Amy, and perhaps that will work out well, but I don't know her that well yet, and chances are she will be leaving France next year unless she finds a job.
For now I will enjoy every last minute that I have with Marybeth and I guess I might be spending more time with my husband's friends. I can also spend more time with my husband, but when I want to go do things, it's going to be rough since I know I can't rely on him for actual activities, only watching TV at home.
It definitely looks like I am going to have to get out there and really make an effort to meet new people, make some new friends and hope that I can find someone else who I really click with and who can become a very close friend! But I'm really gonna miss you Jasmin, you can't be replaced!
Jasmin with the silver monster in Tours